Jesus Christ, quit being such a weakling. I get that your parents basically forced you down a path in life and you assimilated it and adopted it as your own, but you're seriously screwed up if you can't get your head out of this despair tunnel. Acquire some agency.
Colette wrote:This is the part where stubby comes up with a clever retort for everything and tries to convince you the world is a better place than that. Fuck that shit. No amount of clever forum posts will change what I have seen with my own eyes in my short life so far. It's true that I probably view the world inaccurately - it's probably worse than I give it credit for, I'm probably still in disbelief and clinging to some shreds of childish naïvete.
I wasn't even trying to do this, but I feel like Vriska yelling at Shinji.
Sounds like my work is done here
But yeah, in a system where you judge people's value by economic productivity and academic achievement, your despair is appropriate. A dumb person doesn't realize that it's impossible to achieve anything of real value in that system, and so has hope. A smart person does see that it's impossible, and despairs. A wise person sees that economic utility was a bullshit measure of value to begin with, and finds a new basis of human value based on anything other than the amount of wealth you can generate for your owners.
And then you start to see how normal people work together to make things better incrementally, rather than fantasizing about being big mythical heroes and geniuses who save everyone unilaterally with giant betterizing breakthroughs.
Because the world does get better. It's cruel, but it's less cruel than a hundred years ago, and that was less cruel than a hundred years before that. We're still all terrible people, but slightly less terrible with each passing century.
Nothing wrong with capitalism; it's a tool to achieve specific economic ends, and it achieves them well. But if it's the basis of your self-worth then you've failed before you began. Being angry at capitalism for not making the world better is like being angry at a hammer for not being a very good toaster.